He was with me yet I didn't make a move..

tema hari ni akan berbunyi samdul sikit dan ala ala cinta monyet Walau dah nak masuk 35 yrs this Aug 2015. Ni semua angkara En Haziq Ghaz yang dah biar i jadi monyet sudah terlalu lama 9 years okey bukan takat berbulan or setahun dah rasa separuh abad dah ni. Tak jugak he says anything,datang dan pergi ..asyik asyik buat I mcm ohhh..syoknya pastu bila I sampai rumah mulalah jd mcm monyet dapat bantal. Peluk jer bantal senyum sorang then tak mandi, tak makan senyum jer..senyum .. then mula rasa kecewa 

Angau ker tungau ker tak tahu nak compare dah,  sbb all I can say... Dalam banyak banyak lelaki I've been with mmg ada rasa lain when I'm with him. It feels walau Tsunami tengah mengamuk, gempa bumi sedang meletus , this world about to end tetap rasa tenang cause i have him with me.

All the changes i can feel, walau dah bermacam jenis men i have gone out with this one is rare. This Haziq buat i kurang sikit perangai tak senonoh .  Usually if I keluar with  guys pergi karaoke ker, mmg selamba je I terjoget tak ada malu pun.. But with him entahla tak tau..  Tetiba I jd mcm kambing biri biri, automatic malu sheepish tak tentu pasal. Nasib dia nyanyi karaoke ckp I love you to the lagu,  kalau dia ckp I love u to me mau pengsan terus.. Sampai mcm tu impact dia..but tak tahulah kenapa dah 9 years dia tak perasan lagi that magic only he brings.

Then dia pergi suap pulak I makan.. haih...  tau tak betapa I control from tercekik ayam tu.. Tak de lagi org dok suap I makan ni.. my mom masa kecik dulu jer. Maybe all little things he did , he has done it with other women .. but again and again im rare jugak , memang tak manja dengan orang memang tak pandai nak shows how much i suka.

Kalau ikut hati tak nak let him go last nite,  duduk dalam his car sampai pagi cerita pasal ikan barracuda pun tak per,  because it's been many years sangat dah I jumpa dia ,  I have him kejap then he hilang..  rindu dah membumbung di langit dah tak tahu nak rasa apa dah.. Tu yang tak mandi mandi lagi ni duduk dalam gelap dalam selimut,  walau lapar tapi bila ingat dia  rasa kenyang terus.

Pagi ni lain pulak cerita .. tetiba rasa emotional. rasa macam  dah give up , nak drives my car terjun gaung maybe that's the only way to forget him totally bila nyawa dah tiada.