The oddest details about DesireTheVampire
Day she was born: Heavily pregnant mother on the deathbed of her grandfather.
The Day the doctor and nurses panic: They thought her mother delivered to a dead baby, she was born pale without first baby cries, they went panic but she was breathing. The elderly advised to bath her using the same dead's bath, which the muslim often do it whenever someone's pass away before the burial because they thought I kena badi mayat but the irony is i cried after that . (If only I can talk that time i definitely says Hello it isn't cool of you , "air kapur barus" ingat holly water ke apa grrrr...)
Most memorable toddler's moment: Everyone in the kampung Raub Pahang was having a kenduri, orang sibuk kenduri , I buat experiment. Was only 4 years of age sangat determine to cross the road and pergi reban ayam jadi geng pulak dengan ayam , according to my mom , I did makan the tahi ayam "cilakak betul"
Childhood Years: Sangat imaginatively brilliant , she speaks to ants , birds, cats and cacing tanah. Boyish suka panjat pokok , fishing , masuk hutan and because of that she was the black sheep by her aunties because she often bullied her little sister yang sangat crybaby. Orang mandi dalam bathroom , I mandi dalam parit , berapa kali kena pukul dan kena kejar dengan tali pinggang sebab nakal macam boy. Guess who her friend was? semua boys sebab tak suka kawan budak perempuan yang tak adventerous tak suka panjat pokok, masuk hutan dan terjun sungai. Yang boys pulak siap lantik jadi ketua lanun. Kulit pun menjadi sangat-sangat tanned dah tak duduk diam dekat rumah langsung.
So memang dari azali perangai boyish sampai sekarang my dad mengamuk and kata , tersilap lahir patutnya jadi lelaki.
So memang dari azali perangai boyish sampai sekarang my dad mengamuk and kata , tersilap lahir patutnya jadi lelaki.
Primary School Years: Masih perangai boyish , rambut tak pernah panjang. Dress tak main lah nak kena mengamuk suruh lah pakai. Kaki gaduh dengan geng boys yang perasan cool. She was back up by her abang angkat yang sangat handsome dan pengawas sekolah yang paling famous pasal susah nak cari mixed chinese malay dekat kampung masa tu. Because of that all the girls suddenly nak jadi my friend.
The transformed:
Move out: Parents decided to move to the city. I was 9.
Performing Passion developed: Every monday during school assembly cikgu zul akan main piano and I akan menyanyi, bersajak , bersyair entertain everyone. Memang penyanyi school assembly , but the students nor the teacher doesn't seems to mind , because waktu petang budak-budak bukan boleh duduk diam so dah ada yang boleh catch their attention suka sangat lah cikgu-cikgu masa tu. I developed my acting skill as well , cikgu Zul pulak memang guru kelab drama apalagi manja sangat lah. Kecik lagi dah pegang watak Tun Teja , kesian kakak yang senior, but menurut kata cikgu Zul I ada natural talent , boleh nyanyi , boleh menari , boleh berlakon, boleh bersyair dan bersajak , and the watak tu dia yang buat skrip kena multi tasking tu pasal i kena jadi Tun Teja. Tun Teja yang rambut paling pendek dalam history pasal perangai masih tomboy sampai darjah 4.
First grew long hair: When I was 11 , rambut sampai shoulders. Tiba-tiba , my geng lelaki dah jadi lain macam , tersenyum-senyum, suruh tulis autograph ( autograph is popular back in 80s till early 90s). Lupa nak cakap , first period when i was 11. All the girls still girls , I dah mula ada breast, malu gila. First time period lagi la malu . Waktu lesson agama pulak tu ustaz yang mengajar.
Then I rasa lain macam , tengok ada bleeding , apalagi perangai perempuan tiba tiba pulak boleh nangis sikit , ustaz perasan then suruh everyone letak kepala atas meja and suruh i bangun pergi staff room jumpa ustazah ambil pad. And i became the joke among the boys yang ada sakit hati tengok perangai tomboy diaorang ejek berak dalam seluar ,masa dalam bas sekolah. Apalagi terus kena belasah koyak butang baju diaorang , ada lah dalam 3 orang lebam muka kena tumbuk dan tendang dengan singa perempuan dalam bas. Uncle Chan the bus driver back me up , pasal i suka duduk sebelah nyanyi lagu dalam school bus, habis lagu jepun , cina , hindustan cerita shasi kapoor bobbi pun pandai nyanyi. So dia kata dekat the boys parents they started it. Tu la siapa suruh cari pasal.
First ada perasaan gatal nak bercinta: Masa umur 11 years old. lepas period, tu jadi lain macam.
Ada this group of boys yang paling mafia dalam sekolah. Nama ketua dia Asyraf. Masa tu memang nampak macam Leonardo Di Caprio lah, Leonardo first starred in Growing Pains with Kirk Cameron.
He is mixed chinese malay. Rambut dia natural blond, bibir merah and sangat sexy macam Angelina Jolie , Dah lah tu style rambut GQ, dressing pun sama GQ .Zaman tu 1989, mana ada boys yang ada that high taste in style . So memang nampak he is extraordinary. But bukan sebab his appearance sangat yang buat i jadi gatal. More to his naughtiness, memang setan habis. He lives nearby my housing area, kerja diaorang bawak basikal BMX pergi kawasan dekat atas bukit buat stunts and they smoke there.
He has older brother also sangat handsome , with dimples muka Kirk Cameron tapi perangai, setan pun surrender. Kuat meraba perempuan dalam school bus, tapi tengok kakak-kakak tu macam syok je kena raba , maybe sebab his brother sangat handsome kot.
Puppy Love begins:
Si Asyraf have a lot of admires , with that melting face and lips yang sangat kissable , I yang tak pernah tengok porn pun jadi macam nak cium cium je that lips .. sah gatal monyet. But my perangai yang masih ada boyish dan telah bergaduh dengan banyak boys , sampai kan Monitor kelas masa tu si Hafiz my neighbour his mom dah tak kasi I kawan dengan dia sebab takut pulak anak dia yang jadi mangsa penumbuk , biasalah anak lelaki sorang manja pulak , tak boleh kena tease terus merajuk , lama jugak dia tak kawan I. Anyway sebab dah di cop " Mafia" maka the boys pun tak berani nak pewitt pewitt langsung, and i grew matured than any girls in school with heights taller than the boys, ( sebelum hormone ketinggian terbantut ) dah lah tinggi , kaki panjang , leher panjang , breast pun dah masak ranum , then famous pulak dekat school assembly because of my performing talents. So boys pun telan air liur je lah , nak kacau karang kena penumbuk.
Puppy Love begins:
Si Asyraf have a lot of admires , with that melting face and lips yang sangat kissable , I yang tak pernah tengok porn pun jadi macam nak cium cium je that lips .. sah gatal monyet. But my perangai yang masih ada boyish dan telah bergaduh dengan banyak boys , sampai kan Monitor kelas masa tu si Hafiz my neighbour his mom dah tak kasi I kawan dengan dia sebab takut pulak anak dia yang jadi mangsa penumbuk , biasalah anak lelaki sorang manja pulak , tak boleh kena tease terus merajuk , lama jugak dia tak kawan I. Anyway sebab dah di cop " Mafia" maka the boys pun tak berani nak pewitt pewitt langsung, and i grew matured than any girls in school with heights taller than the boys, ( sebelum hormone ketinggian terbantut ) dah lah tinggi , kaki panjang , leher panjang , breast pun dah masak ranum , then famous pulak dekat school assembly because of my performing talents. So boys pun telan air liur je lah , nak kacau karang kena penumbuk.
Back to cerita. So Asyraf and the team ada BMX , and my parents pulak move dari rumah depan kubur cina upgrade dekat tangki air haha. Good news is that tangki air lah dekat kawasan atas bukit tempat team BMX den kang kong lepak.
My dad pulak sangat excited seeing his Tomboyish daughter dah nak sopan sopan jadi gadis. So dari belikan BMX he bought me
Malu tak terkira lah , warna purple pulak tu. Above picture ok lagi blue colour. Beli pulak betul-betul nak surprised me for my birthday present. And wrong time , when he asked me to ride when the BMX team tengah eksyen eksyen buat stunts
Sebab kesian tengok my dad dah beria beli , terpaksa sacrifice malu gila. Dengan muka yang sangat arrogant bawak basikal bakul. Dengan satu doa , please don't let the BMX team sees me in this herrandous bike ,
tapi sepandai - pandai BMX melompat , basikal bakul jatuh ke tanah juga . Yep , I fell dengan basikal pun tergolek , sakit punya lah sakit , lutut dah berdarah. My dad masa tu dalam rumah . Tiba-tiba .. macam drama pulak , mesti dah tahu apa next scene kan ...
Sebelum the suspense scene , let me brief jap kejadian jatuh kenapa sampai boleh terguling-guling macam dekat atas . Apa tak nya , basikal bakul je , tapi speed wise nak buat macam le run yang boleh adjust speed to the max. Tak ke mencari penyakit sendiri....
TBC tomorrow yah
Just to finish what i've started as i don't like to leave things hanging, this blog and my youtube will be abadoned for a long time. I probably be back tomorrow if the pain subside to remove some unwanted arrogant pics of me. I don't know what it is , probably the hurt is deep this time that i can feel my heart sakit sangat , tak tahu nak sakit jantung ke apa ke maybe dah sampai masa i don't know , i guess i should just make the last end as simple as it gets. I did have a puppy love at a young age, its more than that . We both share the same melancholy. A beautiful soul was born in a beautiful face tapi hati dia sakit.
Sakit becuase of his broken family and mine almost the same when ujian demi ujian menimpa our family. So it's like being fated we both met dalam keadaan tak dijangka. Mungkin sebab itu my puppy love stays for 6 years without the need to tell or necessity to meet.Asyraf will forever be remembered as a part that is tender, a soul that is meant to be loved and he is still loved by god.Semoga rohnya dicucuri Allah.
